I see I haven’t been writing in this blog for quite a long time. The last couple of months was too heavy for me. I had a lot of work to do but it is not what made me so tired. I am not afraid of work especially when I do it with passion. I started to do something I believed was useful and I had the qualities to make it so that gave me the strength to cope with the tasks I set to myself.
But at that same moment my faith was put to a test. Too many people appeared in the internet who started spitting on me and writing rubbish about me. I got so much hatred on myself so I started thinking whether the things I do make any sense. Why do people who you try to help throw stones upon you?
Recently I found a new inspiration in one of the great Seth Godin’s posts, which started to clear up my mind:
Persistence isn’t using the same tactics over and over. That’s just annoying.
Persistence is having the same goal over and over.
If the goal I set to myself is important to me, if I believe strongly in it, I have to pursue it steadily. If I chose an impassable way I may choose another one. What is important is never to forget where I am heading for and why.
Maybe this is the right way of thinking. Maybe I have chosen a wrong way and now I just have to find another one. Giving up before the obstacles is the easiest thing to do – I’ve done it many times. Finding your path towards a chosen goal and following it with persistence and strong will is much more difficult. And that’s what I have to do now.
I hope in the mean time not to lose my faith and my belief that what I do is right and makes sense because the faith is the only food for the persistence.
If I lose my faith I lose everything.